Chapter 122: Christina Christina I start with the easier of the two things that I want to talk to him about, him. I tell him everything that I worked through this semester, about how I had to get out of his shadow and how I learned that defeating him made him look stronger, not weaker. "Is that why you never took the classes, Chrissy?" he asks. "You've always been my hero, Dane," I say softly. "I'm glad you finally figured that out.

I can't believe you defeated every instructor on the Beast in both forms. Holy shit! You know I'm going to have to test your strength now, right?" he asks. "You know I'm not going to hold back on you now, right?" I say, grinning at my brother. Goddess, I've missed him. "My Lead Warrior position is still available," he says, grinning at me. "About that, I think I might take you up on that offer." His grin fades and the intense gaze returns.

"Why don't you tell me the real reason for those tears earlier," he says, his voice gentle again causing the tears to return. "Sebastian Webb." He frowns, thinking. "Alpha Ryan's father?" **288 Nouchers "That's the one. " He leans back in his chair. "And here I was thinking I'd finally gotten you to agree to take the classes. But if Alpha Sebastian was involved, I'm not sure I can take the credit." I smile.

"We'll say I had an equal amount of encouragement from both of you." "Mmm," he grunts, not fully believing me. "I have a question. If you're on the leaderboard, you had to take the sex class, but Alpha Sebastian is an instructor. How did that work?" "He was the instructor for the class. I agreed to be his assistant. Which, by the way, reminds me that I am a little torqued with you. I had no idea what I was missing out on not dating Alphas until this semester," I say. Dane bursts out laughing.

"But I was right, wasn't I? You fell in love with him, didn't you?" he asks, getting serious again. "There was always something about Sebastian," I begin. "Sebastian, is it?" he asks, his eyebrow rises almost to his hairline. "I was his assistant in the sex class Dane. He didn't want there to be any semblance of a power differential." "Mmhmm. Go on." I roll my eyes but continue. "We started on the Train getting to know each other.

We'd talk, sip whiskey, and then he started massaging me, getting me used to his touch while he got used to my body. Then things 16.33 % progressed, but at that point, I hadn't decided to take all the classes. It was Sebastian who encouraged me to try and get on the leaderboard. That was when we agreed that he and I would use some of our evenings together for me to act as Alpha and him as my assistant. He's the one who broke me during hell. week.

He knew from the beginning that you were the reason I was holding back. When I finally let loose in sparring class, I defeated him." I smile remembering that moment. "He told me he wouldn't accept anything less than my best ever again. So that's what I gave him. I gave him everything. I gave him the best that I am." I realize my eyes have gone unfocused as I've remembered the semester with Sebastian.

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When I refocus on Dane, he's watching me with that intense look that I understand so much better now. "Nothing that you're telling me is helping me understand what's causing the tears." "He's a widow, Dane. I don't want to always be someone's second best. They were fated mates. He could never love me like that." "Did he tell you that?" he asks. "No. I pushed him away, used finals as my excuse.

He gave me the space I needed and then after graduation, I told him that I couldn't do it, that I needed to be first for someone." "And he let you go?" he asks, surprised. I shrug. "I avoided him, until two nights ago. The night before he got off the Train." Propler 122; Chish'a "What happened?" he asks softly. I huff out a laugh. "Boy did he unleash on me." Dane raises an eyebrow, silently asking me to expand on that. "We spent the night together.

He told me I don't get to tell him how he feels. I'm not sure how many times he called me his, but enough that it feels like he's branded himself into my soul. He made sure to ruin me for any other man, but how can I ever know that I'm number one in his heart? Is that even fair for me to ask of him?" Dane looks thoughtful, thinking through what I've said to him. "I don't know what it's like to lose your fated mate and I pray to I the goddess that I never have to find out.

But what I will say to you, is everything that you just said to me is what I would and have said and done to Harper. I want her to know in no uncertain terms that she is mine, from the moment I met her until the day we die. I make sure that every time we're together, she knows that there is no other man out there who can make her feel the way that I do.

You may not be fated mates, Christina, but he is definitely treating you like you are." "But could you ever love another woman the way you love Harper, Dane?" He slowly shakes his head as he thinks through his answer. "That's not a fair question, Chrissy. I haven't had to go through what Alpha Sebastian has gone through. You don't lose your fated mate and not have it change you. I don't know who I would be without Harper by my side, but I wouldn't be the man I am today.

To survive her death and then to have to go on, to stay alive for Devin until he could take over the pack? It would change me. So, I can't answer that. But more importantly, neither can you. If Alpha Sebastian says that he loves you like that , and you feel that love within him, then I think he's right. You need to stop telling him what he feels and start listening to what he's telling you." He tilts his head and looks at me. "You have a week. Think about what I said.

If, after this next semester at the Academy you still want to be my Lead Warrior, I will be ecstatic to have you. But don't shove aside your chance at happiness because YOU don't believe that Alpha Sebastian is able to give you what you want. It seems to me that he's telling you he can and wants to. Take time to see if he can. Talk to him about what he wants and see if he's willing to give you everything that you want in life. And if so, don't be a chicken shit.

I didn't raise you like that," he says, smiling to take the edge off his words. "I'm not a chicken shit." "No, you're not. So, maybe, give him a chance. See what happens and go from there." I smile at my brother. "Thanks, Dane." "You're welcome," he says looking at his watch. "We have an hour before your party. Come spar with me. I want to see if I can still kick your ass." "You can't," I say, making him grin widely. "Prove it." I did..